9/18/19, after 3 pm. I was told my job was over. No more diabetes coordinator, not because of anything I had done, the administration made the decision that the need for in-patient and out-patient diabetes education was not necessary.
But don't worry, we are transferring you to Organization Development and Training. No, we don't know what you will be doing, but you have a job. Give it a try they say.
Spend the night in tears. What about the patients? What about the added burden for nurses? What about what I want to do?
9/19/19 Happy Birthday to me. Do not want to talk to anyone. Have to go to work. Do not attend shared governance. Had to go talk to the new members of the Medical Staff. I felt so stupid sitting there by Dr. McVey - He knew - I knew that I was lying. We will not be doing a thing I said.
Had to much wine for dinner. Asleep early. Up in the middle of the night. Finally, had a text message from my son...I didn't forget you - my phone is about to die.
More tears-Trust Jesus - I keep saying it over and over. I believe Lord that you are in control of my life - but right now I feel like it is spiraling out of control I want to work. But at what I applied to do 3 years ago. I have asked this frequently - Did I misunderstand Lord? Do I get out from under your will for my life? Is that why I am in this mess today? Or did you send me on this path to teach me? What am I not learning? I am tired, Lord. Oh so tired.
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